northern stars

I feel so relieved...I dropped out of rush today. I still really dont think im much of a sorority girl. It was great not to have to be anywhere today! So many girls dropped out today, but most of them were crying and i was happy...i may be wrong but i think that says something! Im really sick though...sore throat, headache, really tired...hmm...elise is also feeling sick again...stupid connection still intact! lol! I ate at panera bread by myself today...lunch plans got changed...felt like broccoli cheddar soup in a bread bowl...great for a sore throat and free thanks to rachel (love ya girl!). Class starts tomorow so im not going out but i cant wait to get on a normal schedule, i definatly need some consistancy in my life. I talked to elise today for a long time...I miss her so much but i love talking to her. I met some really nice girls from Ohio yesterday...kate and amy...they seem really nice and down to earth...Florida and ohio girls have more in common than georgia girls...who knew? Im on the phone with Georgia...were planning labor day...i cant wait for her to get here! Im also talking to my brother...hes making an lj right now so i can keep in touch with him to! I miss him...hes so awesome. I sat in my dorm alot today because i wasnt feeling good and i watched alot of mtv and music videos nowadays show the beach alot...yall will be able to find me there labor day! oh and jaymie, ryan cabrerra was on trl today...it reminded me of you! oh and elise i saw the click five video like 3 times and yes they are very hot! I ate dinner with lindsey tonight...im so glad shes here. We can sympathize with each other...its great. So far my new way of looking at things is working, but i just developed it this morning! Im not as sad and i feel better about life in general. I still miss everyone, but the phone calls help (thanks elise, rachel, georgia, jaymie, charles, mikey, andrew, brigette, trevor, chase, cody, shaun, sara, sarah hansford, stacy, wesley and anyone else ive talked to in the past few days!) I was listening to postal service today...I love them...their songs make me happy and remind me of certain people. Im probablly goin to sleep early tonight because i have class tomorow! I love yall and miss you!

Things will get better...we will adjust...but we will always stay connected as long as we make the effort...im definatly willing and i hope you all are...my entire life has changed this summer...and for the better...im so much closer to so many people that i never thought i would be...its amazing...things happen for a reason...good and bad...people come and go...but everyone ive met and everything that has happend has made me better...they are like northern stars...pointing me on my way...i am so thankful and so lucky...you make my life worth living.